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Pahgawk
I'm a computer graphics programmer who occasionally still makes art.

Dave Pagurek @Pahgawk

Age 28, Male

UBC

Toronto, Canada

Joined on 2/8/09

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I wouldn't beat yourself up about it. I've learned that sometimes, people get what they want to out of something without getting the true meaning so that they have something to talk about or create a little controversy. I honestly did not get that you were glorifying suicide.

I know a lot about chronic depression, because my mother and brother were diagnosed with it. You portrayed the symptoms and emotions dead on. In my opinion, it would be a shame to change any bit of a really good video that shows depression as it really is, and not what people get from teenage drama shows. Good luck bro, and I look forward to your future work!

Thanks. I'm glad that's what you got out of it because that's more what I was aiming for. I suppose the whole animation was more of a way to vent feelings than anything else. But either way I think I need to at least rearrange the ending, maybe once NATA is over and I can look over the video again objectively.

I really liked The Monster Is Me. Sometimes the best work we do, is out of our hands....

I personally understood it clearly. I'm a severely and chronically depressed autistic boy, so I felt the emotions more than well enough. Haha
As for NATA and whatnot, and I'm excited to see what you come up with in the future!

I've been meaning to do this for awhile, but now's as good a time as any:
I'd love to do some vocal work for you if you ever need it. I'm finally kicking off my voice acting, and I love working with proactive animators, who I can be sure of in terms of project completion.

I can't wait to see more from you!

Well people liked it is what counts

Happy birth

Thanks, man!

i dont know if its a bad thing to touch on dark subjects or have people interpret things certain ways. i dunno i kind of like it. it feels bolder and the discomfort kind of makes you feel like youre an actual artist, exploring the uncomfortable. BACK IN THE DAY, when i did animate more heavily, i did like that power. I remember being really depressed after Till death do us part, and many people interpreted it as me hating my dad, and while i did/do have some resentment, i dont think i hate my dad, i just felt alot of freedom in the animation medium to be extremist about things, its not so much that particular movie either, i do that rather often, i was suprised that people became so sensitive to it because of that particular flick.

Anyway long story short, sometimes its good to have pieces that create a dialogue or do cause discomfort. And you shouldnt be sorry for that.

Also happy bday dave

People are weird. They were seriously getting a glorification of suicide out of the film? Ridiculous. I loved it and didn't get that impression whatsoever.

I loved your video, although I do think the end was a bit confusing. The suicidal flashes were occurring too fast for me to really see what they were showing, so I interpreted it as something sinister was occurring underneath the "happy ending". It still didn't resemble a glorification of suicude, but you were rushed to meet a deadline, and I'm sure your message will be more clear when you go back and do a little touching up. But it was a very meaningful piece nonetheless, so nice job. ;)